Natasha Grossman is the parent of two SJCS students and Vice President of the Board of Trustees.
It is a great irony that I am here today delivering this d’var/teaching to SJCS staff. I, of all people, who often describe mine as the least observant family in the school and who had never heard a d’var torah (or at least know I was listening to a d’var) until my first child entered this school.
I have spent the last two years on the Board of Trustees avoiding this moment. However, Mitch Dernis (Board President) is on vacation with his family, and two well-established Jewish practices in my life are guilt and obligation. So, when Mitch asked that I step in for him today, I said yes (of course, not without letting him know the gravity of the request he had made of me and the selflessness with which I had accepted it).
However, I am someone who believes that things happen for a reason and that when “opportunities” come my way, there is some kind of cosmic purpose to them. In this case it is an opportunity for me to face my fears, take on a new challenge and delve one millimeter deeper into my “Jewishness.” But more importantly, it is an opportunity for me to thank and acknowledge you for creating an environment where I can do that, publicly, and without judgment or assessment – and for my children to do the same.
As many of you know, no one was more surprised than I to find myself enrolling my child in a day school. However, when I began to look at the possibility of sending Max to a public school I realized that what was most important to me was that Max had a moral education. I knew that there were many places and ways to ensure that Max had a good academic education, but to find a place where he could learn and grow in a community where ethical living was equally important was not as simple. Given that, it seems fitting that this week’s parashah speaks to the laws of building society, of relationships with others, and the morals and ethics to which we, as a people must hold ourselves in order to maintain a fair, just and protective community.
I came to the prospective parent open house at SJCS with high expectations. I was looking for a school that taught leadership and service, personal responsibility, and the understanding of self inside of community. I also knew that I would know if the school was right for Max if I was moved to tears during the open house. SJCS proved itself on both accounts that evening.
As I was reading commentaries on this week’s parashah, I found one that spoke to me, and that is representative of what is most valuable to me about the SJCS staff and community.
Rabbi Lauren Eichler Berkun wrote :
We must judge ourselves as if our every action has cosmic consequence. As we delve into our souls and assess our standing in the eyes of God and man, we must imagine that our lives are held in a delicate balance. The decisions we make about how we lead our lives will have a significant impact on the world around us – our families, our communities, our nation.
I believe that this is the lesson that the teachers and staff at SJCS consistently teach to my children – to be thoughtful in their actions and reactions, to consider the impact of their choices on others, and to be aware of the place that they have in the larger community.
As we begin this year as staff and as board members, I think this is a good lesson for us to remember for ourselves. There will be changes and challenges, new curricula, new children, new colleagues, new parents and difficult choices to make along the way. Living life as if each of our actions has cosmic consequences and being present to the awesome responsibility for how we walk through the world could be paralyzing. However, if rather than letting the belief that there is gravity to the things we do stop us, we use it as a reminder to pause, to look at the bigger picture, and to the cosmic consequences each of our actions have on the larger community, I think that we will find ourselves being gentler on ourselves and each other as we strive to teach our children the importance of their relationships with others and of the morals and ethics to which we, as a people, must hold ourselves in order to maintain a fair, just and protective community.